as the year end, most people reflect on how their year had gone through. and i am one of them. this year has been very substantial in my personal development both inner and outer me. i have learned a lot in every aspects of my life. every step i took brought obstacles i sometimes made me quit. being the eldest, i am "by default", became the bread winner of the family. i am not taking away the fact that my mom is still working, but majority of all the expenses were charged over my salary.
though it is also a good, i immediately got a job a week after graduation. with no chance of vacation or rest, immediately went to work. well, what could i say, i am just a newbie in the world of professionals that is why my first job was so hard for me. with strong will and patience, i soon learn how to make my work easier, but still, the hardships weren't paid enough. the work soon begun to frustrate me. and my body starts to fall. i soon begun to have flu, and felt weak which forced me to end the first job. i rested for two months and look for another job.
changing jobs, wasn't that easy. it took me five companies before i got hired. i almost gave especially when the news started to announced that there the job hiring will end in just a week. i really panic over that news. thankfully i got on the following week. it was a graveyard shift. and the time was hard to manage and maintain. I'm like a nocturnal creature that is awake at night and asleep during the day. it was kinda hard because i really have no time for my brother and special someone. i am always frustrated and short tempered. and i hated myself for that.
soon, other sidelines came to us, due to financial shortage, we must accept them because our job incomes were not enough to fulfill our needs and our bills. it was hard and so must frustrating.
and though it seems that there is not much that I've learned as i related generally a part of my year, still i learned a lot. words can not express how much this year has been a very important part of me.
i was able to find the special someone who has loved me for who i am and not what i am and what i have.
i was able to know who my true friends are.
i was able to value myself over anyone and anything else.
i was able to have faith and be grateful to God.
i was able to identify my weaknesses and slowly enhance them.
in every fear that i felt, in every rock I've stumbled, i was able to reflect on my self.
though i almost gave up most of the time, i never forgot to always look at the brighter side.
i have learned to accept love without fear of rejection.
i have learned to express myself no matter what other people say.
i lived without paying attention to those people who just always pull me down.
i loved my mother more.
i learned to pay attention to my brother.
i learned that being spontaneous does not have to happen all the time, sometimes you must give time to plan for yourself.
i have planned a good future for me and my family.
i have found him.
i learned to love myself.
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