as the year end, most people reflect on how their year had gone through. and i am one of them. this year has been very substantial in my personal development both inner and outer me. i have learned a lot in every aspects of my life. every step i took brought obstacles i sometimes made me quit. being the eldest, i am "by default", became the bread winner of the family. i am not taking away the fact that my mom is still working, but majority of all the expenses were charged over my salary.
though it is also a good, i immediately got a job a week after graduation. with no chance of vacation or rest, immediately went to work. well, what could i say, i am just a newbie in the world of professionals that is why my first job was so hard for me. with strong will and patience, i soon learn how to make my work easier, but still, the hardships weren't paid enough. the work soon begun to frustrate me. and my body starts to fall. i soon begun to have flu, and felt weak which forced me to end the first job. i rested for two months and look for another job.
changing jobs, wasn't that easy. it took me five companies before i got hired. i almost gave especially when the news started to announced that there the job hiring will end in just a week. i really panic over that news. thankfully i got on the following week. it was a graveyard shift. and the time was hard to manage and maintain. I'm like a nocturnal creature that is awake at night and asleep during the day. it was kinda hard because i really have no time for my brother and special someone. i am always frustrated and short tempered. and i hated myself for that.
soon, other sidelines came to us, due to financial shortage, we must accept them because our job incomes were not enough to fulfill our needs and our bills. it was hard and so must frustrating.
and though it seems that there is not much that I've learned as i related generally a part of my year, still i learned a lot. words can not express how much this year has been a very important part of me.
i was able to find the special someone who has loved me for who i am and not what i am and what i have.
i was able to know who my true friends are.
i was able to value myself over anyone and anything else.
i was able to have faith and be grateful to God.
i was able to identify my weaknesses and slowly enhance them.
in every fear that i felt, in every rock I've stumbled, i was able to reflect on my self.
though i almost gave up most of the time, i never forgot to always look at the brighter side.
i have learned to accept love without fear of rejection.
i have learned to express myself no matter what other people say.
i lived without paying attention to those people who just always pull me down.
i loved my mother more.
i learned to pay attention to my brother.
i learned that being spontaneous does not have to happen all the time, sometimes you must give time to plan for yourself.
i have planned a good future for me and my family.
i have found him.
i learned to love myself.
Wednesday, December 27, 2006
Saturday, October 28, 2006
Friday, October 20, 2006
Monday, October 9, 2006
push the button
"Push The Button"
I'm busy throwing hints that he keeps missing
Don't have to think about it
I Wanna kiss and
Everything around it but he's too distant
I wanna feel his body
I can't resist it
I know my hidden looks can be deceiving
But how obvious should a girl be?
I was taken by the early conversation piece
And I really like the way that he respect me
I've been waiting patiently for him to come and get it
I wonder if he knows that he can say it and I'm with it
I knew I had my mind made up from the very beginning
Catch this opportunity so you and me could feel it 'cos
If you're ready for me boy
You'd better push the button and let me know
Before I get the wrong idea and go
You're gonna miss the freak that I control
I'm busy showing him what he's been missing
I'm kind of showing off for his full attention
My sexy ass has got him in the new dimension
I'm ready to do something to relieve this mission
After waiting patiently for him to come and get it
He came on through and asked me if I wanted to get with him
I knew I had my mind made up from the very beginning
Won't miss this opportunity so you and me could feel it 'cos
If you're ready for me boy
You'd better push the button and let me know
Before I get the wrong idea and go
You're gonna miss the freak that I control
If you're ready for me boy
You'd better push the button and let me know
Before I get the wrong idea and go
You're gonna miss the freak that I control
I've been dropping so many hints
You’re still not getting it
Now that you’ve heard everything I have to say
Where we gonna go from here?
After waiting patiently for him to come and get it
He came over and asked me if I wanted to get with him
I knew I had my mind made up from the very beginning
Won't miss this opportunity so you and me could feel it 'cos
If you're ready for me boy
You'd better push the button and let me know
Before I get the wrong idea and go
You're gonna miss the freak that I control
If you're ready for me boy
You'd better push the button and let me know
Before I get the wrong idea and go
You're gonna miss the freak that I control
(I control)
If you're ready for me boy
(For me boy)
You'd better push the button and let me know
Before I get the wrong idea and go
(Oh, oh)
You're gonna miss the freak that I control
Ohhhhhhhh Ohhhhh Ohhhhhh
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